goodbye April Corona 2020
“Be the designer of your world and not merely the consumer of it.”
– James Clear
We all know 2020 didn’t go as we all had it in mind, right? The year took a strange turn in early March, and for most of life isn’t as it used to be.
Wanna hear something a wee-bit controversial? ⠀
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Something that keeps coming up in the news and on social media is the worldwide fear afflicting us due to COVID-19.
And I have to be honest with you for me it’s not so much fear, but it’s anger that I’m feeling towards this whole scenario.
Mostly because I don’t know whom to trust anymore, be it government or even people in my own country.
Who is speaking the truth? Will somebody be calling the police because I’m meeting a friend or my family? ⠀
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What I don’t hear much about, however, is gratitude for this opportunity, for self-reflection and growth. For the opportunity to slow down. And again here I have to be honest as well, I wasn’t the most positive person either the past 4 weeks. I was grumpy and was looking for reasons to complain. I binge watched “The Black list” in 2 Weeks…. which of course killed my creativity and mood to create… My poor husband had to bear with me under the same roof.... 🤦🏼♀️⠀
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I don’t like myself these days and it makes me sad, I kind of take on the worlds problem and try to make it my own in order to solve it and help the ones who suffer most. ⠀
As I’m typing these words, a thought just crossed my mind; it could be reason that I’m a first born of 7 kids, and therefore tempt to be a problem solver for the weaker ones and feel responsible even if it’s not my fault. But having worked as a physical therapist in many Hospitals and Praxis I know also the truth about many lies that manipulate patients so they undergo a surgery that’s not necessary or take medicine that’s to much for the body to deal with.... that’s why this whole drama makes me angry as it’s hard to believe what we are being told in media.⠀
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Oh dear I’m not getting to the point I guess... 🤪⠀
Gratitude is the best attitude, I hear and always preach it to myself... That being said, as from the beginning of May I want to switch gears and start being more positive again and not let Corona steal my joy and happiness anymore. I have given it to much power! 👊🏻⠀
Sometimes it’s all we can do to stay sane and keep going or maintain a positive mindset, right? ❤️⠀
Today as I picked up my morning routine again, I read the book: “Atomic Habits” from James Clear and stumled upon these words:
“You don’t have to be the victim of your enviroment. You can also be the architect of it.”⠀
Big or small, what are you grateful for today despite your fear? Leave me a comment and commit together to a better next month.
xo Tanja
